and the saga continues...

We went to a different doctor on Wednesday to establish care within our insurance network. Afterall, we don't need to pay the big bucks for the basic care of a miscarriage. The plan was to get another ultrasound to confirm a blighted ovum and go from there.

Here was our conversation during the ultrasound:
Dr. L: "it seems like a normal pregnancy to me"
Me: "what does that mean?"
Dr. L: "it means I see a normal embryo and a heartbeat"
Me: --pause for a moment of confusion before starting to shake and cry--

*I have no idea why this pic is so small but lets face it, there isn't much to see*


So, we are still pregnant...with a baby...whose heart rate is 120! I will be 8 weeks on Saturday. But, (there is always a but) the baby is measuring about a week smaller than normal, hence why we didn't see anything last week. While this is concerning, there is really nothing we can do about it. So, I will continue the PIO injections and have another ultrasound next week.

When Chris and I decided to undergo IVF we expected a simple "Yes, it worked/ you are pregnant" or "No, it didn't work/ you are not pregnant". Instead we got:
Blood test #1: Good
Blood test #2: Not as good
Blood test #3: Bad
U/S #1: Inconclusive
U/S #2: Good
U/S #3: Bad
U/S #4: Good

Over the last week I have been very nauseous. Even though I didn't think I actually had a baby on board, I did know my hormone levels were indicative of a pregnancy. But the truth is I couldn't tell if the stress of the entire situation was causing me to be sick or if it was the pregnancy hormones. Probably a cross between the two. I'm much happier being sick for a reason greater than stress!

With all of that said, Chris and I are cautiously optimistic. We are well aware the slow developing fetus is cause for concern, but like I said, it is what it is and we can only wait and see what happens.